My Voice In My Chaos

Romancing myself

Working my ass off, snatching little moments of peace and fun exclusively for me.. yet everyone has one question… why, how are you so happy? Who are you seeing? Hey it may be big news for some… but a woman doesn’t need a partner to have fun or be happy! Going to a music jam…
Personal Growth

Rumi told us that the wound is the place where the light can enter. Khalil Gibran told us that out of suffering emerges the strongest souls, that the most massive characters are seared with scars. Marcus Aurelius told us that the impediment to action advances action, that what stands in the way becomes the way.…
How deep have you met yourself?

Everyone we meet and every time we are triggered, we are given an opportunity to see deeper in ourselves, why does this bother me? If we are brave, we can see this as a person holding a mirror to ourselves to understand our conditioning, our past experiences. And maybe work towards fixing some broken part…
Mind fuck

What have I become? Scared of creating memories with anyone. Never been so tempted yet so afraid that I freeze, knowing I don’t want more goodbyes. So I don’t even take a step forward. So what do I do? Express desire, thoughts through dance, expressions, songs, art, all the while sitting at a tiny table…
Loneliness

For the past 7 days , I have made stories and believed in them where there were none. And what about the story I told myself from 2020.
Do you overshare on social media too?

You know, who over shares on social media? Those who are lonely. I thought it was self expression but sometimes, it feels like too much visibility. Writing on any topic makes you feel vulnerable.
No title

How to explain the genesis of an obsession? At which exact moment, what event happened that an attraction built up, your soul leaned into another’s like it’s finally home. You remember the first night you dreamt of him or the first time you felt him close to you, the chills you got when you meditated…
A few laughs

We all want to be happy in our lives. I have also started being social again. Just for an occasional laugh or casual banter. Though I still like to be alone, the same routine gets monotonous and robotic after a while. A shift happened in me this Jan of 24. Suddenly I got tired of…
What part of my narrative am I ready to change

Change has to happen this year – better and upward. I have to change my financial and emotional story. I have to build my assets base and become mentally stronger. I have to become financially comfortable. Not to hold what I have outgrown – old body, old sense of identity, old relationships , old triggers.…
A little crazy

There is something in me that needs expression, that needs to come out… like standing in your naked truth… it comes out when I need to draw or dance or sing or write for long hours…. why do I see everything like a karma cycle of doing and receiving… I experienced life earlier, and now…